John de Ruiter, My Testimony.
I OPENED MY EYES.
I met John de Ruiter in 1999. Unfortunately, It took me a long time to realize who John de Ruiter really is. After a phenomenal experience that occured when I was in his presence in 2010, and after lots of unbalance and suffering, I opened my eyes.
I realized De Ruiter was not transparent and not supportive.
I admit for a long time I was hoping he would be a great person capable of helping and guiding people to the truth. But I was deluded, and I was wrong.
My trip in February 2013.
I went to Edmonton, Feb-March 2013, and after I tryed to talk to John de Ruiter, in the meeting and at the café, I realized that John didn´t want to speak about what had happened to me 3 years prior when I was attending a summer seminar in 2010.
Or He knew something BUT HE DIDN´T WANT to speak about it.
He was evasive.
When John at the café told me: "-You didn´t need to go through that...", I realized that he just wanted to avoid the talk, he wanted to wash his hands of the situation.
When John told me: "-why don´t you let go of the experience.", he meant: we don´t need to talk about it.
I put in question the integrity of John de Ruiter based on the way he conducts himself to people and specially when someone is in need of help.
John de Ruiter uses techniques and manouvers to confuse as a way of manipulating. He manipulates people´s mind in order to control them while charging lots of money. He is not a teacher but a business man in disguise.
WOMEN FALL IN LOVE WITH JOHN DE RUITER.
IN 2000-2001 I went through lots of confusion. Many signs, energies in my body and events suggested to me that John and I were going to have a closer relationship. I was having an intense teacher-follower relationship with John, energetically speaking. It was tangible and powerful, at least for me.
Some times, I found myself very confused. I remained confused for some time in 2000-2001. John knew what was running in my mind from my notes and letters, but he never responded. He didn´t help me to relieve my confusion.
Later on, in September 2010, he didn´t offer any help either in bringing orientation or clarity. John de Ruiter is very negligent and irresponsible. John de Ruiter is able to see when someone is going through feelings of love, or attachment, confusion and instability. But he doesn´t bring any clarity. John prefers to keep the confusion among people. That way people will continue paying money with the false hope of finding understanding one day.
IS JOHN DE RUITER DANGEROUS ?
JOHN SAYS: "-YOU DON´T NEED TO UNDERSTAND".
What is the real intention of John when he puts you down and under estimates your capacity of thinking and understanding?
What is the real intention when he says you always have self importance?
Is he actually taking away your own power to discern what is true from what is not?
People around him are mesmerized so they can´t see what he is doing.
Not understanding can be dangerous. When a teacher or guru refuses to guide or to responde, it can compromise the safety of that person and it can produce unnecessary pain. It could also provoke an act of self-harm.
Some leaders of this world choose to keep their people blind, submitted and subjugated, so the leader can have the control on them.
It is very clear that John de Ruiter is very skilful in deviating the conversation for his own convenience. If John doesn´t want someone to speak about certain subject, he eludes, avoids, and can be evasive. If you are in the questioner chair, De Ruiter is able to erase the line of thoughts, to put your mind in blank, to change the direction and take control of the conversation. Some people call it mesmerizing.
MESMERIZES PEOPLE
DE RUITER technique of mesmerizing during the meetings includes a combination of 3 different techniques:
1) Deep yogi-kind breathing;
2) Intense eye-to-eye gazing in silence, and
3) low and sluggish tone of voice.
Practicing the 3 techniques together, it creates an electromagnetic field in that place. It´s like putting a bunch of people inside a huge pressure cooker, not within heat, but within a strong electromagnetic field with an intense short wave-length vibration.
- The more he does it in one place, the stronger the energy (or energy field).
- De Ruiter says : "in Edmonton there is more depth...".
- The meetings are in a closed place.
- De Ruiter doesn´t move for almost 3 hours.
- He doesn´t want people to move either, during the meetings.
- The meetings are slow and mostly in silence.
- He created a self-image of being automaton, infallible and authoritative. He barely show any emotion. And so, people fear him.
When having an impact on the brain, the mind starts having thoughts and beliefs that are not TRUE. Also, De Ruiter plays with the psychology of the people to make them dependent on him.
3) low and sluggish tone of voice.
Practicing the 3 techniques together, it creates an electromagnetic field in that place. It´s like putting a bunch of people inside a huge pressure cooker, not within heat, but within a strong electromagnetic field with an intense short wave-length vibration.
- The more he does it in one place, the stronger the energy (or energy field).
- De Ruiter says : "in Edmonton there is more depth...".
- The meetings are in a closed place.
- De Ruiter doesn´t move for almost 3 hours.
- He doesn´t want people to move either, during the meetings.
- The meetings are slow and mostly in silence.
- He created a self-image of being automaton, infallible and authoritative. He barely show any emotion. And so, people fear him.
When having an impact on the brain, the mind starts having thoughts and beliefs that are not TRUE. Also, De Ruiter plays with the psychology of the people to make them dependent on him.
I WENT TO EDMONTON LOOKING FOR UNDERSTANDING.
The objective of my trip to Edmonton, in March 2013, was to receive clarity and understanding from John de Ruiter about the experience I went through in 2010.
One more time De Ruiter didn´t help. He avoided the subject. Later on I understood, all on my own, that I was exposed to so much energy in that 2010 summer seminar that I ended up in a psychotic state and very much unbalanced. A deep chemical unbalance had occured in my brain. For some time I was out of source, hearing voices and believing strange things that were not true. I was also fragile and very confused. I was believing I had some kind of mission to accomplish. De Ruiter did nothing to bring me clarity.
I had previously informed John about my difficulties through the letters I sent him. I wrote to him for nearly 2 years, since the moment I left Edmonton (October 2010). I didn´t receive any answer or explanation. He avoided the subject.
Once a friend said to me: "You had faith in John. But John didn´t have faith in you".
After some time I WAS ABLE TO SEE.
After a phenomenal experience and its subsequent unbalance, it takes time for the experience to sink and be integrated. Then clarity and understanding arises.
I recovered all alone. It took more than one year. It wasn´t easy. It was tough. I went through lots of difficulty and depression.
When I regained my balance, I found myself gaining clarity.
I finally saw that De Ruiter is not there to help someone who is in need of help, but to protect his profitable business. His lack of support (a talk, a call, an empathy, a guidance, or an explanation) provoked great amounts of distress, pain and depression. It was the ugliest thing I ever experienced.
I went through many challenges and difficulties. One of the challenges was fighting against depression.
John de Ruiter ´s attitude is not based on equality, fairness or compassion. What he shows to people is selfishness, self-centeredness and arrogance. He is dangerous.
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""Our explanations must be guided by Truth.
Truth cannot be adjusted to conform
to what we want to hear""
Leonard Mlodinow
""Humans study science because we have an urge
to know how our lives fit into
the greater scheme of the Universe.
The answers are only edifying if they are true"".
Leonard Mlodinow
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RIDDLES.
JOHN de RUITER chooses to be unclear and puzzling. He creates an enigma around it. You find yourself trying to guess riddles.
John talks about "-what you know"...., so sometimes you think you know, but you don´t.
John de Ruiter is not an embodiment of truth. His actions show evasiveness, lack of response, manipulation and ambiguity. It is shown that his main intention is to keep the control, the power and his wealth.
When De Ruiter talks about his capacity and ability he can be an arrogant man
JOHN AFFIRMS HE HAS "X-RAY VISION". DOES HE REALLY?
John affirmed he has X-Ray vision. If that would be so, he would be more caring and understanding towards people.
Imagine the capacity of John de Ruiter of seeing what is happening in a person after working with people for more than 25 years.
John de Ruiter knows very well that, after an intense opening, there comes a state of vulnerability, fragility and even confusion. The role of a person like De Ruiter should be to offer support, help and sincere clarity.
But, he does the opposite: He keeps the confusion.
INTENTION IS IMPORTANT.
Intention means the purpose or attitude towards the effect of one´s actions or conduct.
If the Teacher has a tiny bit of unclean intention, then the process of openness of a person can get deviated compromising the safety and the right development of the individual.
Thoughts are energy. Intention is energy. When the intention is unclean, the energy that is produced attracts the entities that match that energy. The kind of intention attracts the entities that match that kind of energy.
We know that light, love, honesty, compassion, generosity and transparency belong to the same frame of energy.
However, an unclean intention can match energies of greed, manipulation, selfishness, desire for power and vampirism.
The lack of clean intentions in a individual like John de Ruiter, can put someone in danger after an intense opening due to deep confusion in his or her mind. Without the proper guidance from a teacher or guru, darkness and confusion can take over inside the space that was opened up and then misguide the person even to the point of self-harm.
That is why I said: the levels of darkness I went through put me over the edge and close to acts leading to suicide many times. It was not easy. I went through very difficult times. I went through deep loses: a big lose of money, lose of friends, and a temporary lose of health. John knew it from my letters I wrote to him for over a year. But he never responded. He didn´t care.
During 2012, healing and integration took place. A whole new equilibrium was reached inside me.
Fortunately now I´m fine and with better judgment to see.
John de Ruiter is not enlightened.
De Ruiter is not the person he claims to be. If he were a person with an expanded consciousness, he wouldn´t behave the way he does.
A person of an expanded consciousness should be someone who shows compassion, consideration, caring, thoughtfulness, and humbleness.
De Ruiter is not enlightened. He doesn´t embody Truth. He doesn´t lead people to the Truth. He is there just for his own interest and his own business. He has his favorites. He is partial. He has a lack of consideration towards many people.
De Ruiter is very far from the Truth. He uses and manipulates people. He doesn´t have a pure heart.
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In the year 1999, when I met John de Ruiter, another follower called Brian, who moved to Edmonton from Vancouver, a blond long hair and good looking guy, who was in distress and depression, committed suicide while being in Edmonton. He moved to Edmonton in hope of finding help from John. I remember when Brian once told me, in the old meeting building, that he was loving John but he was not receiving the support or balance he was hoping for. After he lived for a few months in Edmonton, I received the news he committed suicide. I heard he threw himself from a Bridge into freezing waters.
.......................................................................................................What would it be real enlightenment ?
Nowadays I realize that enlightenment is simply to BE ABLE TO SEE what someone is doing or not doing, and his real intentions.
The mind is an instrument that allows us to understand, to discern and to see further.
This narrative is the product of my own experience.
I hope this can offer the reader some help and insight.
Marian Vasquez
Email: marianinjaco@hotmail.com